After my dismal day and feeling in a funk because of the bad news about the long wait for the sleep study, I went back to work to finish my day. I decided to make a phone call to Jill the patient specialist again and tell her about the appointment date and what my options were, or anyway, what do I do for the next 7 weeks while I wait for it. Of course I couldn't reach her, but I did leave a voice mail. I was pleasantly surprised after a couple hours of working with 2 of my agents at their desks that I came back to discover she had left me 2 voice mails. The first one was to tell me that she was going to call around to some other doctors, not necessarily affiliated with my hospital (we have at least 5 major hospitals in our city) to see if there was something available that was sooner. The 2nd voice mail was to tell me she found a doctor that had availability mid August and she sent them over a referral! Wow! This moves everything up by a month and I am so grateful. I called her back and left another voice message thanking her for going above and beyond to help me out.
What a relief! And what a nice thing to do!
In other news...today was Couch to 5K. After Monday's attempt, I went into the idea with some trepidation and concern. On Monday I literally made myself sick pushing myself to complete. I had a couple moments during where I felt like I needed to vomit and did a little bit into a Kleenex I had handy. I don't think this is the kind of fun and feeling of accomplishment I was seeking. Perhaps someone with my extra weight, age and fitness level shouldn't be pushing myself so hard. Maybe the fact I had to leave work early due to illness because of Monday's workout, was a warning to me to step back and take stock of the ramifications of the whole thing? Maybe these are all just rationalizations?
I made myself get out of bed and tried to do the workout, but I immediately started feeling ill on the first run interval. The program was also increasing the intervals by 1 extra minute and so this further worried me as the last one was so difficult. I self-negotiated myself to instead do the run sections at a very brisk walk and then the walk sections at my regular walking speed. I felt a little bit like a failure and like I was letting myself down, but in reality, at the end of it all, I am still sweating just as much, walked nearly the same distance, went the same time frame, so I shouldn't beat myself up about this. I made a mental promise to myself that as soon as I can do this same day, and do it running instead of walking, all the way through, then I will move onto the next day and so forth, It's OK. I'm not just on the couch. I AM up and moving.