Late Night Ramblings

 As I sit here in my quiet home, soaking my poor foot that has an infected toenail for going on 2 weeks now, I am taking stock of my week, how I am feeling overall, and evaluating where my head is.

Work keeps me busy, but it has felt a bit like a drudge lately.  I was chatting with a co-worker today and she reminded me that I really ned to schedule some time off.  Even if just a few hours here and there...I need to step away.  We have been doing a lot of interviews in the last few weeks so I have felt the need to be there and available because I am on the interviewing staff, but maybe soon I can consider it.

The weather is finally improving, but with this bad toe, I haven't been able to wear a shoe that adds any pressure.  My sneakers would be painful, and its not really practical to take a walk for exercise in a pair of sandals.  So I am hopeful soon I can get myself out there again.  I am missing it a lot. 

Tonight I have 2 of my granddaughters spending the night.  Brinnsen and Sidney, aged 10 and 8.  We sat around in the living room watching BTS music videos and visiting.  Isn't it ironic that the boy band I enjoy watching, also happens to be one that my 10 year old granddaughter also likes.  (face palm)

My weigh ins this week have gone up and down, but the lowest so far was 195.8.  That was exciting to see.  I think I can safely say I shouldn't bump up into the 200's again now.  I hope not anyway! I think sometimes my carbs go a little higher than I want, but my portion sizes are not that large, so it seems to balance itself.   Still just trying to avoid the obvious high carb culprits and mainly get them from natural sources, like fruits and vegetables.  Actually, the only fruit I eat is an apple and usually just 1 per day.  It doesn't feel like a crime ya know?  Still trying to avoid those all or nothing attitudes that have self-sabotaged  in the past.

So, I keep plugging along and feel grateful that at least I am where I am now and not starting over where I was 6 months ago.  Still have further to go on this journey of course but am realizing more and more that I will get there when I get there!

Sticking With It

 I am feeling pretty good about myself lately.  It's okay to give myself the pat on the back for sticking with this since November.  No tricky diets or expensive food plans.  Just modifying how many carbs I allow myself to have.  Avoiding bread, potatoes, popcorn and the like.  I do on a rare occasion allow a little taste of something that might not be the best choice for a full portion, but that happens really rarely.  Has it been hard?  Am I haunted by food talking to me from the pantry or the refrigerator?   Not really!  And that's the good news.  It's not full on Keto, but I do think I am pretty much in ketosis most of the time regardless.  If that even matters?

Today I was 196.6.  So...in 2 weeks I've lost 2 lbs?  But really its hard to say because in that 2 weeks it. fluctuated up and down a few times.  But today and yesterday its stuck at the same, so I am going to say that's the number.  That's okay.  There have been weeks where I have lost nothing at all, but the trend is in the right direction.  I am no longer living in my pajamas only and can wear my jeans again and some of my tops from before.  It feels good!

Today I got my 2nd COVID-19 vaccination.  My arm hurts a lot,  but so far no real side effects.  I hope it stays that way!!