Intermittent Fasting

I am still plugging along with my ketogenic lifestyle.  I wasn't really losing any more weight though and the scale would go up and down.  Since I am doing the Omada program, I am required to weigh in daily because of the scale they sent to me, so seeing what the scale says isn't avoidable, although they do say there should be daily fluctuations but a general downward slide.  And this has been the case, so for that I am glad.   But, nevertheless, a .2 weigh loss in a couple weeks was very disappointing.  So, I decided to revaluate what I was doing with keto and ask myself so questions about the kind of food I was eating along with the amount.  Honestly, my calories were ok and the macros were also Ok, but maybe some of the times of day I was eating were not so much ok.

I started intermittent fasting about 1.5 weeks ago and it has really made a big difference.  I have been doing the 16:8 method, where I fast from 8pm through 12:00pm and then from 12-8 I am allowed to eat within my calories and macros.  I think I had been snacking a lot more in the evenings and it was affecting my progress.  I really haven't done snacking either during the day, so find most of my calories consumed around 6-8pm, but I can only eat so much because of my smaller stomach, so it isn't too out of control.

As of my weigh in this morning, I was at 188.9.  It sure is good to see those 180's again, because its been a very long time!!

I have also been more diligent about making sure I am drinking enough water everyday.  My trick to get into the habit was to wear 8 bangle bracelets in my right wrist, and as I drank 8 oz, I would move a bangle to my left wrist.  I found that I could go through 8 pretty easy that way, and start over again.

Right now, my biggest incentive is to be able to wear some of the cuter things I bought when I was at my smallest...about 15 more pounds should make that happen.

It will happen!

I can do this...

It's been quite a few months since my last update on this blog.  I think its an important one to keep up on though, so here I am.  As I mentioned in previous posts about 4 or so months ago, my son and his family moved in with us.  They found their own place in August.  It was nice having them here, and I did enjoy the grandkids a lot, but my diet suffered.  Around Mother's Day, I caved in with a big chocolate truffle.  And then, it was downhill from there.  I had all kinds of carbs and really just stopped the Ketogenic diet altogether.  This was compounded when I visited the doctor and she told me I shouldn't be doing the keto diet as well.  Honestly though, I could tell she didn't really know much about it and so it makes sense that would be the case.   But, I used it as an excuse for eating things I shouldn't be.  Anyway, to make a long story shorter...over the months I packed weight back on.

In August, I came down with a sinus infection and that spiraled into pneumonia.  I visited the doctor twice in that time and on the first visit I was around 196 pounds and then on the last visit, I was at 199 pounds.  That really was a wake up call for me.  I had this feeling if I went back over 200 lbs, I was a goner.  The following week, despite feeling lousy with pneumonia, I started back on Keto.  It was made a little easier because I had a couple sick days from work and since I was already feeling ill, I knew that the kept flu I had previously would just be part of my general illness anyway.  It worked out fine.  According to testing of my blood, I was in mild ketosis within about 3 days.  It's been 3 weeks now, and I am back down to 190 pounds.  I can see the 180's right around the corner.

I was looking back through all my charts and it looks like my lowest weight since surgery was 167.7 on 6/15/17.  And, at that time, I was feeling pretty "skinny" for me, so maybe 165 will be my new goal weight?  Or something close to that anyway.

I have also signed up, through my insurance with Omada.  They sent me a scale that I weigh on each day and it automatically sends that information to be charted.  There is no specific food plan with the program,  so that is perfect for following Keto while I am doing this.  My main focus is trying to stay within my macros and drinking enough water.

My 2 year anniversary from my surgery is in November, and personally, I would really like to weigh around 175 if possible.  That would be very satisfying for me.  And I think with about 10 weeks, I should be able to achieve that realistically.

So, that is the latest update.

Still Plugging Along

I'm still plugging along the Keto path.  I think.  I can't say that I am really losing all that much, but it seems more downward than upwards and that's a positive thing because I was only upwards.  I've still avoided bread, popcorn, potatoes, pasta and the like.  I did mess up a little bit on a recent trip my husband and I took where I had some corn tortilla chips with salsa.  That was a bit of guilt,  but I don't think it hurt too much and overall I have been very much vigilant about my food choices.  Probably my biggest failing has been nuts and cheese.  Nuts in particular.  Also beef jerky.  But, I allow it anyway and figure it's just the choice I make that is somewhat better than the heavy carb things I was eating before.  I started around 193 in March, and here at the end of April I am around 180.  I'd still like to be comfortably into the 170's before my 18 month doctor appointment on May 29th.  I still think it's doable.  I wish it was more than doable and I could lose another 10 pounds by then,  but realistically I don't think that's going to happen.

My son and his family have moved in with us temporarily and this is only the 3rd or 4th day they have been here,  but I do find that I am not as apt to snack in the evening because they are here.  I have been eating my dinner as planned and then not going back to rummage around the fridge or pantry.  Since that is my danger time, it's got to be a positive thing.  I guess time will tell if that continues or not.  But for now, I think its good.

No Popcorn since March 4th!

As another day goes by, I am reminded of how lucky I am.  I had an amazing opportunity to battle against a life-long fight with obesity.  Since I was a small child, I lived with the chubbiness and then grew into a teenager with all sorts of emotional and social feelings of inadequacy because I carried extra weight.  As an adult this spiraled into a serious problem with obesity that affected me in so many ways, not to mention my health.  I had tried so many times to lose weight.  Strict diets and exercise plans that made me feel deprived and a failure because I could stick with them to my goal.  And accomplishing goals is really overrated.  I probably do not have anyone that would agree with me on this, but because goals have end dates, why would that mean you hit a goal and magically attain perfect?  Nope, doesn't happen!

A Ketogenic diet is really working for me!  I get plenty to eat, I never feel hungry or deprived and for the most part have not craved any carb-laden foods.  Popcorn and candy.  Those were my 2 carb-demons, but none since March 4th!  It could be the 5th.  Im actually not sure, but I was pretty official on my switch over on March 6th because that was my official date to start.

I think I am finally fat adaptive now.  I am not really sure how someone knows this, to be honest.  I only know that after the initial drop in water weight, there wasn't really any loss of weight, but more of a maintenance of that water weight drop.  But last week and the week before, a slight decrease at the scale was detected!  Yay!  It can't be all about the numbers, however.  My clothes are slightly more comfortable and less tight, and that's even better.  I do, however, want to reach at least the lowest weight after surgery, which is still, 15 more pounds.  Then I will have to decide what my real goal weight will be and start maintenance.  Possibly, another 5 - 8 pounds, but we will see.  My guess however, is I will be deep into summer before I find that range.  (or later, I don't care...)

One thing I do have occurring is a follow up appointment with my WLS surgeons office at the end of May.  I want to be able to NOT be up around 190 where I was when they saw me in November.  I think I can make it at least into the 170's.  Here is hoping!!

A month on Keto and remembering the warrior

I have been doing the Ketogenic diet for about a month now. It's been pretty easy overall.  There are some things about restricting myself on certain foods that is never easy, but as far as eating plans go, this one does leave me satisfied.  There isn't the dramatic weigh loss, but I feel like its a slow and steady sort of loss.  And quite honestly, I don't have lots and lots of weight to lose.  I have enough though and my main objective is to lose all the regain.  I think I will get there.  I notice though, as I still seem to have the need to weigh every morning, that it fluctuates up and down, but ultimately lower than where I started.  So, I feel pretty good about that.

This week I haven't used the treadmill very much and haven't walked that much either.  Last week I really overdid it and walked a lot!  My right hip has been aching a lot since then so I think the break has been good for me.

I thought it was time to share a picture.  It's not terribly indicative about progress, but the photo on the left was taken right before my surgery, and the one on the right was taken this past weekend.  It's just a face close-up, but I think it shows some changes overall.  I still have a round face, but that's the natural size of my face.  My neck looks wrinkly, but there was a lot of fat in my double chin, plus I am 55 years old so that's going to happen.

I need to remember how far I have come.  I have done a lot to make myself healthier and I don't miss the size of the previous me.  But, there are a few things I want to consider and say.  I don't want to put the old me in a box of the old me and the new me.  Old me was brave.  She decided to make a difference and break free from the prison of her fat.  She went through some very dramatic and traumatic things in order to make that happen.  She dealt with carrying around 100 extra pounds of weight at one time and she suffered a lot from diabetes and high blood pressure.  She hid her body away from others and suffered from agoraphobia because of her embarrassment being around people she thought might be critical of her.  She is the one that had to make the decision to change her world and her life after many, many years and layers of fat.  She had to shake it loose.  And, she did.  She did this for us so that she and I could have a healthier and hopefully longer life.  She has given us a chance to live again.  To walk, run, lose medications, find clothes that fit, climb hills, breathe easy, bend over, cross her legs when sitting, be in public situations comfortably....feel "normal".

She is a warrior and she is me.  And I will never forget this because where I am now, despite any few pounds of regain or frustrations from time to time that I am not perfect in my attempts, this place now is a good place to be.  I am comfortable in my skin, loose and lumpy as it may be, and with time and effort, it will become what I want it to be.  But, honestly, even if I stayed right here and never lost another pound, I could live with that too.

Keto and Blood Sugars

I an not sure if I have had blood sugars this low since I don't know when?  After my WLS, the doctor told me that my diabetes was under control and I didn't need to take medications for it anymore.  This was probably the best NSV I had on my whole weight loss journey.  And of course weight loss.  So, what happened that made me regain some of that weight?

Carbs happened.  I think that as soon as the nutritionist told me it was OK to introduce some grains back into my diet, I took her at face value and went nuts!  Potatoes, bread, rolls, popcorn, chips and the worst thing of all...SUGAR!  Lots of it.  Black licorice, chocolate, gummies of all kinds.  And the awful thing about these treats is that they are so easy to eat with a sleeve.  They don't take up a lot of room and I can eat them and eat them and eat them.  And I gain weight pretty consistently when I do. I would kid myself into thinking I could handle a little bit and it would be ok, and before I knew it, I was at the bottom of a bag of Smart-pop, or a jar of gummy candies from Lolli-Pops at the mall.  I never checked my blood sugar (denial) and pretty much avoided the scales (more denial).  And I was beating myself up.  The cute blouses I bought for work were getting snug, the jeans I always wore where snug.  I stopped walking every day.  I didn't drink enough water.  I drank coffee with loads of sugary flavored creamers.  Carbs, carbs, carbs....

Reality reared its head a few times when I got the nerve to weigh myself.  And for a day or two or even a couple weeks I would try protein shakes, or Isagenix or just denial of food altogether.  I would  do OK during the day at work when I was busy but in the evenings my mind would wander to that bag of white cheddar popcorn in the pantry or a bag of salted cashews and I would eat handful after handful.

So, finally, when the scale hit 193 and I saw 200 so close to where I never want to be again, I felt pretty low.  How could I have done this to myself after all the hard work, enduring a drastic surgery and the aftermath, not to mention the expense?

The fact is...I am human.  I perhaps over dramatize the amount of junk I was eating.  But, either way, I am not someone who has the genetics to process carbohydrates very well.  The fact that I had severe  type II diabetes is proof of that.

Keto has helped a lot.  I have seen blood sugar readings as low as 82!  I don't think I ever have seen numbers like this.  And, gradually, I have lost weight too.  It's encouraging.  I am in week 4 of following this plan and I don't know if I am fat-adaptive yet, or what, but the weight is slowly coming off, my blood pressure and blood sugar is normal and I am sleeping good.  I find I am thirsty more often, so I drink more water.

I have been able to adapt eating out at restaurants fine too.  I can have a steak, a salad with any full fat dressing, a side dish of vegetables.  I just avoid the potatoes and pastas.

My clothes are still snug, but I have only lost about 10 pounds of regain.  My lowest weight since WLS was 167.  I got as high as 193.  I am now at 183.  I want to see 167 again.  It was a really good place to be.  That's 16 pounds.  I can lose 16 pounds!  I can and I will.  It can take a few months if it needs to.  That's perfectly fine.  I just need to be good to myself and let it happen!

Trying to Find my Happy Place

It may seem like I am desperate, but I really know I need to find my comfort zone for weight loss and maintenance.  Gaining weight after a successful weight loss is the worst!  It might even be worse than being fat to start with.  Having the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow dangled in front of me...just out of reach, and then denied.  Maybe a little dramatic?

I don't want to be negative about Isagenix.  It was something that got me thinking about losing weight in a more positive light.  It showed me that I can have cleanse days (or fast) and I won't die in the process.  But, it also is drinking meal replacements, and I don't enjoy that.  Life shouldn't be constant denial of all things that we crave.  Like chewing food.  So, I have a huge box of unopened Isagenix products in. my pantry.  Any takers?

So, maybe the shakes and cleanse products weren't my thing.  Then what is?  How am I going to get this regain off and then lose the rest of the weight I want to lose.  Or maybe its just getting the regain off of me and being happy where I was?  It wasn't a bad place to be, after all.

I am in week 4 of doing Keto.  I'm not going to explain this way of eating here because no one reads this anyway, but it helps me to write, so therefore I write.  What have I learned after 4 weeks?

• I can do this
• I am not missing the popcorn and black licorice (hahaha)
• Savory food is my favorite anyway
• Butter, coconut oil, olive oil, bacon, eggs, meats, fish, cheese, cream---seriously?
• Chicken smothered in parmesan, cream and garlic with mushrooms?  Yes!
• Hot wings drenched in butter and hot sauce?  Yes
• Bacon and Eggs?
• Real Cream in my coffee?
• A juicy steak with a side salad and REAL full fat dressing?  YES!

Could a person lose weight doing this?  Apparently they can!   I have.  My weight had got up to 193. I did the Isagenix, had a nice loss, and gained it right back with a few extra pounds.  I remember that cycle and it scared me.  I am now, at the 3 week level down to just under 184 pounds.  It's not super fast loss, but it's loss.  I am trying not to focus on the scale too much though.  There are so many fluctuations anyway.  But, my blood sugars are lower than ever and I seem to be sleeping pretty good now as well as feeling full during the day.

Evenings are still a little problem, but I have found that nuts, some cheese, or even a little natural peanut butter seem to help me.

High Fat, very low carbs and just a moderate amount of protein.  It's working....

Still Doing Isagenix. Maybe Day 21?

I am not sure what day this is, but honestly I would probably have to subtract at least 2 of them because I wasn't on my best behavior this past weekend or Monday evening.  I made the choice to be bad, knowing full well I would  regret it.  And do I?  Yes AND no.  Mostly yes, because I was on a good roll with the program and following along great, but also no, because I am trying to teach myself a new quality in not thinking in terms of ALL OR NOTHING!  I have to stop thinking that if I am not perfect and successful at every turn then I have to throw in the towel.  I remind myself of this almost daily.  Because, I have had some negative thoughts creep in and I really was letting them affect me and my efforts.  I let doubt that I could be successful creep in there and felt my whole giving up attitude come back with a vengeance.  But NO!  I decided Monday night and again this morning I was going to do a cleanse and I was going to take 1 hour at a time and as each hour passed and I was accomplishing what I set out to do, it became a little easier.  My plan for tomorrow is to tackle it the very same way. One hour at a time....and maybe I can also make it through 2 days of cleansing...then gently let myself go back into regular shake days.  I really want to lose this weight.  I just have to keep my eye on the goal.

I also went in and updated my auto ship, so a new one will be sent out to me later this week.  I can do this!!

Day ? Isagenix

I have no idea what day this is following the Isagenix plan.  How has it been going?  Well, overall I would say it is going fine.  I am not perfect with it to be honest and have had a couple episodes of unnecessary snacking in the evenings; nothing too out of control, but enough that weight loss hasn't really happened since my cleanse.  Not that any of this is bad.  I think it's real-life results.  Even though my idea was to lose weight and am using it as a weight loss plan, therefore, a diet...that doesn't mean a lifestyle change wouldn't be indicative of maintaining too.  Am I sick of drinking shakes 2 times a day?  Sort of.  I have to admit there is something satisfying of eating real food, chewing and enjoying all of that...but, once again, right now I am trying to lose weight so the sacrifice needs to be there too.  And overall, I like the shakes.  I think they have an ok flavor.  I like them better than the protein shakes from post surgery that I lived on.

I have noticed this week that each morning when I weigh myself (and yes, I know that is excessive, but I do it anyway), that my weight has gone back down fractionally, but steadily.  I think I am OK with that.  I plan on doing another cleanse day or 2 next week.  Mainly I have been following this plan each day:

First thing in the morning:  Ionix - not a big fan of the flavor.  Sometimes I drink it in hot water like a tea and that is pretty good.  Sometimes I mix it in my shake, although I am not certain if that is Ok.  Other times, I just mix it up in some water and drink it fast.  It doesn't mix very well though and leaves some grit in the bottom.  I think I may order the liquid next time and see if that is better.

Shake:  After a bit, I blend up a shake in my nutribullet.  It makes it thick like a milkshake.  I usually just have plain water and ice in with 2 scoops.  I often mix vanilla with chocolate or the strawberry.  I don't think I will order strawberry again.  It's not my favorite.  They do have chocolate mint now, so I am pretty sure I will be purchasing that one.  Sometimes I also add a chunk of frozen banana or frozen strawberries.

Snack: After a couple hours at work, I have a boiled egg.  I have really been looking forward to the egg.  It's such a complete food!  Sometimes I also have about 1/2 of a sliced apple before lunch.

Lunch:  Another shake.  This one is a little less appealing because I am at work and don't have a nutribullet there, so I just shake it up in a shaker cup with cold water and a few ice cubes.  It gets thick, but not like a shake.  More like a glutenous sort of thick.  Not as nice, but still Ok.

Snack:  Sometimes I remember to have a snack in the afternoon, but often I am busy.  If I do, it's usually a cheese stick or a few almonds.  Or both.

Dinner:  Food!  I have salmon, or chicken or I even made some Asian Lettuce wraps this week.  They were the bomb.  I will try to remember to add the recipe to my blog.

Evening....this is where it can all go downhill.  I want to snack.  All day I have been good and on track and this is my snacking time.  This is my downfall.  But, I will keep trying and not choose bad snacks.

The Weekend of Doom

It was actually a pretty decent weekend.  I got a lot accomplished that I planned on doing and felt like I got enough rest for a change.  But, my food choices were not that great.  Nope, not at all.  I don't even want to talk about changes to my bathroom scale.  But, whatever happened there was well-deserved.  However, I am now back on track for a Monday.  I had my shake and Ionix this morning, 1/2 and apple, and a boiled egg for a snack, another shake for lunch, a cheese stick for a snack, and soon I will head home and finish my day off with some chicken and salad.  I think it will be fine.  I am in charge.


I plan on having another shake day tomorrow and then on Wednesday I am going to do another cleanse day.  My plan is to do only 1 cleanse day instead of 2.  That's the plan anyway.


I can do this.  I can succeed!

Isagenix Day's 8 & 9

I have done well overall, although I think this late shift hasn't been the best for me because of the fact that I eat 'lunch" at 4:00 pm and then my last shake after 8:00 pm, and it's just too late to be eating anything.  The day after my cleanse I had gained back a pound and that is still holding steady 2 mornings later.  This is now the morning of day 10.  I DO feel good about my progress although I'd rather see the scale move downwards some more.  But, I just have to stick with it and it will come.  And, I plan on sticking with it.  Today is my last day on the late shift at work and I can get some semblance of normalcy back into my schedule.

What a ride this whole weight loss journey has been.  If I were to look back and read from the beginning I would need to also take into consideration the weeks and months where I struggled and waited and wanted so badly to be where I am even now.  It's important to keep it all in to perspective because other than the very first initial months after surgery, none of this has been easy.  And I think I need to realize that it probably never will be because as I have already learned, maintaining my weight and staying consistent aren't easy.  But, I can't stop until I am in a healthier range, so I will continue Isagenix because it has worked for me to reverse the process and I can't say anything else has in the last few months.

One thing I have noticed though, is my sleeve restriction seems to be more obvious after the past 9 days.  I get full faster than I had been.  I am glad for that!!

The End of the Cleanse

Whew...it was a long day today, but I am finally finishing up day 2 of my cleanse.  Everyone said it would be easier on the 2nd day, but honestly, I think it was easier yesterday.  Anyway, I was a success!  Tomorrow I get real food.  YAY!  I will still have my 2 shakes and a meal in the evening, or maybe I will eat lunch since I am on the late shift and then just have a shake for dinner.  That might be the way to go.


Something occurred to me this morning that I thought was a good thing to add to my journal here.  This is actually the first "diet" I have been on since having weight loss surgery 14 months ago.  And, I have been on a lot of diets in my life.  In the last 20+ years, every diet was with the realization that I had 50-60 maybe even 100+ pounds to lose.  And, I would lose 10-15 pounds and feel really good, and even stick with it until I lost 40-50 pounds a few times, but the finish line always still seemed so far away and the course very long to get there.  And after 2-5 months, something would happen, I'd go off track and with my "all-or-nothing" attitude I would pack those pounds right back on and even gain a few extra in some cases.  It's a very demoralizing feeling. 


So, this is whole new territory I am in here.  I am trying to lose around 34 pounds, of which, 9 pounds I have already lost.  Never in my dieting life that I can remember have I had such a small amount to lose to get to the goal I want to be at.  Never!  Never have I been able to see the finish line as a very possible reality!  I can do this.  I CAN DO THIS!!  And, I might add, losing 9 pounds now, is a lot different than losing 9 pounds before.  When I was caring around 250 pounds, a 9 pound loss would have been great, but not noticeable, I would probably need to lose an additional 9 to even notice my clothes fitting differently.  Nine pounds now is a much bigger deal, and honestly, a little harder to lose.  I am sure the next 9 pounds will be more of a challenge, but I know I can do it.  I can see what I need to do and now have a pretty solid tool to help me get there.


Isagenix has worked out to be a lot better than I thought it would be.  Would I have been able to lose 100+ pounds with it a year ago?  I don't know...I tend to think I wouldn't have been able to.  I do not regret my surgery, I think it saved my life.  But now I have the ability to use it along with good nutrition, self discipline and determination to get me to my goal.  I am not setting a time limit, I'm not going to be fanatical, but I do want to succeed.  So I will!

THE CLEANSE -Isagenix

I meant to update over the weekend, but never did get around to it.  I followed the program pretty well and have been trying to make it work for me.  Yesterday was my first day doing the cleanse.  I admit to being afraid that I couldn't do it.  I am always so afraid of failure.  But I made it through and it really wasn't all that bad.  Currently I am beginning my 2nd cleanse day and as of this morning, here are my current results:
Weight:  lost 9.2 lbs
measurements:
Neck:  .25"
Chest:  1"
Diaphragm:  2.5"
Waist:   .5'
Abdomen:  1"
Bum: no change
Upper Arm:  .75, .5
Upper Thigh:  .25, .25
Upper Knee:  1, 1
Calf:  .25, .25
Total Inches:  10" (I think?)

According to these results, I have 13 more pounds to get to the lowest weight I was since my surgery of 167 and 25 to get to my goal weight of 155.  Suddenly, this all seems very doable.  I hope I can continue on, staying motivated with Isagenix to get me to that goal.

At the moment I am partaking of a cleanse diluted in hot water and listening to the rain fall outside on this cold January morning.  I am working the late shift this week, so don't go into work until 11:00AM so it may be making this process a little easier for me because I can get through 2 of the cleanses before I leave for work.  I think the next time I do a cleanse I am going to try the one where part of it happens overnight instead of 2 full waking days.  We will see though.

For now, I just have to get through today!

Day 3 Isagenix

Yesterday went very well all considering.  I had my 2 shakes and my 2 snacks and sensible dinner.  That sounds like a commercial for a weight loss plan if anything ever did!  But, I did it.  Snacking was at minimum later in the evening so that is a bonus.  I think this product leaves me pretty full overall.  I am not sure if it is because I have a small stomach to begin with or just the fact that it's doing what it's supposed to be doing, but I like it.

One thing I am not particularly fond of,  I have decided, is the Ionix Supreme.  It isn't that it doesn't taste good, because that's not really the issue, but it's the fact that it won't dissolve very well in water when I try to drink it.  I probably should have just got it in liquid form instead, but the idea of having tea sounded so good.  I think the problem is, I thought I could have HOT tea and not just warm tea, and I think I read somewhere that it shouldn't be hot.  I need to research that some more.  But on day 4, I am having it mixed into my shake instead, and then it won't matter how it's consumed.

Okay, now for the exciting news..I am still losing weight!  This morning I came in at 182.8 lbs.  That's 6.2 pounds lost in only 3 days!  The bigger plus to this is that I am getting closer to the 170's.  I really, really want to get back to where I was when I started this regain of weight last summer, so my hope is this will get me headed in that direction.  I still plan on doing my cleanse on Monday and Tuesday.  I sort of wish I had done it yesterday, but it's ok.  As long as I do it during this process, I will be fine.

Isagenix Day 2

Yesterday I completed Day 2 on my adventures with Isagenix.  Once again I faced the evening struggles of wanting to snack and I did break down and nibble on a few raw almonds and some carrot and celery sticks.  Not the worst way to go if I had to break down.  While I wish I could be steady and steadfast and not ever give into those impulses, I also can't attack things with my normal "all or nothing" attitude, because when I choose nothing, I usually give up!

I have discovered that I am really enjoying the shakes.  Anyway, at lunch yesterday I made one with 1 scoop of strawberry and 1 scoop of vanilla and it was quite refreshing and delicious.  I mixed in a little more ice and it was quite thick like a Wendy's Frosty.   For breakfast I had a complete chocolate one, with 2 scoops of chocolate instead of the 1/2 vanilla, and it was fine as well.  Not too chocolatey.

The most amazing part of it all is that when I got on the scale this morning, my weight was 184!  That's a 5 pound loss already!!  Yes, I get the whole water weight loss that is to be expected, but this makes me feel really good!

On day 3, I am supposed to do a cleanse day, but I don't think I am ready for that with the weekend ahead.  Honestly, I am scared of the weekend in general because my husband and I usually go out to eat at least once.  But, I have decided this can be ok because as long as the shakes are what I have for the other 2 meals, I should be fine.  So, I am going to stick with my plan of doing the cleanse Monday and Tuesday of next week.

Ok, Day 3 is about to begin...

Thoughts on Day 1

This is just a quick entry since I am drinking my first shake of day 2 and was reflecting on how my first day went.  Admittedly I was overwhelmed at the beginning of the day.  I wanted to make sure I was doing things right and didn't want to make any missteps.  The end of the day was probably the hardest part for me and all of that is because I struggle with being an evening snacker.  I am not in the least hungry when I do this, it's just the way my brain is wired to keep eating and eating, always thinking about the next thing I could eat and if I should go and get it.  And then, if I'm not careful, I act on the impulse mindlessly.  So, last night, after I ate my sensible dinner of salmon, salad and a small amount of rice, I kept feeling that impulse to look for a snack.   I am happy to say that I avoided it and drank some water instead, but those feelings are very frustrating.  If I am not mindful, I can easily plow through a bunch of extra calories that are not necessary.

So, one day down!

And I know I am not supposed to weigh every day, but I do this anyway....186.4...I am down 2.6 lbs!  Yes, I know its water weight...but I am still happy to see it less than it was yesterday morning!!

So, now I am drinking my morning shake and then need to jump in the shower.  I have an early start today because I have a dental appointment early this morning.  We will see how that all goes for later today and going back to work.

Isagenix Day 1

Well, here I am.  It was kind of daunting when I took everything out of the big box that arrived last evening with my Isagenix products.  I probably should have taken a picture of it all.  I read through all the materials and feel like I have a pretty good grasp of what I am supposed to be doing.

This morning I got myself out of bed with the intention to exercise and at least walk 20 minutes on the treadmill.  It was so cold in my house though (thank you winter) that I just never got out of the fuzzy robe until time to get in the shower and get ready for work.  As I write this, it is just past noon, so I am only 1/2 way through my day.  But here is how it's going so far:

I started out with a product called Ionix Supreme.  It's basically a shot size drink of some concoction that the brochure says does this:  Ionix Supreme is a nutrient-rich herbal tonic infused with natural vitamins, minerals and plant-based Adaptogens– perfect for combating the effects of stress and fatigue. Ionix is a powerful asset for building endurance and improving overall personal performance.  Sounds good to me.  I opted to pour it into warm water and drink it like a tea this morning.  I am trying to wean myself away from caffeinated drinks, so my hopes is that if it is taken this way it can give me that warm drink in the morning I enjoy.

After that I waited about 20 minutes and mixed my shake up.  I mixed one scoop of vanilla with one scoop of chocolate.  It was pretty good.  I mixed it up with some ice in my nutribullet, so it was nice and thick like an icy shake.  (of course, that means it was also super cold and contributed to my chill).  It was actually pretty good, and that's saying a lot because I spent 6 weeks dealing with sweet protein shakes after my WLS a year ago and I didn't want to drink another one.  This tastes different, however, so I was pleasantly surprised.  I also took a Natural Accelerator capsule.  According to the literature this product:  is a weight loss product which is designed to increase metabolism and fat loss, without containing stimulants or added chemicals which can lead to unpleasant side effects.  Ok, we'll see how that goes.

I can't say that I felt anything after these products other than full.  I did drink the shake pretty quickly and I had also drank about 20 oz of water as well as the "tea" so my little tummy was pretty full.

Last evening I had taken my measurements, so that awful business was already done, and I also weighed myself this morning first thing.  Let's just say....I wasn't happy with myself.  But, new beginnings...again...right?  Anyway, the scale read 189.  Not quite 190..right?  I can do this!!

So, I am supposed to insert a snack mid morning.  I really had no idea what that should entail and with all the research I have done in the past week or so, there was a lot of conflicting information.  I nibbled on a few raw almonds and then resorted back to the "snacks" they provide.  Honestly, I wasn't sure if that was supposed to be saved for cleanse days, or used now and it dawned on me that they probably would like me to use their products for snacks so I run out too fast and have to buy more.  I decided that on lunch I would reach out to my coach and see what she recommends.

I made it to lunchtime and had my 2nd shake.  Because I don't have a nutribullet here at work, I just used the shaker cup they provided in my shipment.  I added some ice to about 8 oz of water and shook it up.  I was surprised that it actually thickened up really nicely.  I am glad of that because I am not a fan of watery protein shakes.  I also messaged my coach and she told me to incorporate "real food" snacks and save the product ones for cleanse days.  Sounds good to me!

The rest of my day should consist of one more snack.  (almonds it is) and then tonight I plan on cooking up some salmon with a salad and maybe some sort of whole grain or something of the like.  I am also supposed to take one more Natural Accelerator today and then before bed I should take something called IsaFlush, which does about what it says...help with digestion.  Oh, and drink lots of water.

These shake days are supposed to continue for a couple days and then I do 2 cleanse days.  Because of my schedule the rest of this week and weekend, I am opting to continue the shake days until Monday so I will probably tune back in then with an update, unless I really feel like I need to talk about this some more.  It could happen!

The main thing is...it hasn't been terrible.  Hopefully I will feel the same way tomorrow!

Isagenix

A couple of years ago, a friend from back home reached out to me via facebook to tell me about a product she had been using that she felt might be a good fit for me.   At the time I was 100+ lbs overweight and aware that every get skinny quick gimmick or fad was tempting, but I also knew that needing to lose that much weight was an indicator that I probably wouldnt have the determination to stick with it long enough to make that big of a difference.  Plus, I just was afraid to fail again.  I had started Nutrisystem, I can't even count how many times, Weight Watchers even more times than that.  I was feeling all my failures at weight loss and assumed this would also be one of those financially expensive failures.  I told her thank you, but no thank you, for now.  Here it is 2 or so years later, and I reached out to her last week to sign myself up.  I will start on Isagenix tomorrow.  Is this a quick fix weight loss fad?  All of the research I have done on it indicate that those that use it have really loved how it makes them feel.  It has a cellular cleanse that is supposed to be very beneficial as well.  I decided to try it for 30 days, and be faithful in the process and give it a try.  Since I have nothing to lose, and have regained some weight since my WLS from a year ago, it seems like a good plan.  I no longer have 100 pounds to lose, but 20 or so would be great.  I decided this would be a good place to document the process.  Here I go again!