Too much time has gone by since I last updated here at my blog. I am now 37 weeks from my surgery that was on November 15, 2016. The last few weeks (probably about 6 weeks) have been a very real struggle for me. The mind feels so impulsive and I have given into following it's advice to eat off program, slack off somewhat with my exercise and in general I have felt the turning of the tide. I have to stop this downward spiral before it becomes out of control.
With all of the not taking care of myself, I had weighed myself periodically and was for the most part, maintaining my weight. Possibly up 1 or 2 pounds and then I would be back down a day or so later. I knew my eating habits weren't the best and I could eat a lot more than I used to. Today I weighed myself and I was up 5 pounds! I felt real fear, for the first time since surgery that I could actually regain all this weight I have lost!
Today I forced myself to just drink protein shakes. Anyway, that was my plan. For the most part I succeeded except I did slice up a small apple this evening and it was so delicious. Tomorrow, my plan is similar, except I will have a dinner with Jim in the evening. If I start craving something in the evening, then I will drink another protein shake. Thats my plan. Its a short term solution, but I hope to at least lose the regain and get back where I was.
I have enjoyed the summer evenings. The weather has been so hot this week, but the dogs and I have tried to go on walks despite that. I haven't been able to get out of bed like I was before, so the evening walks are compensation for avoiding the treadmill in the mornings.