I'm not ready for the honeymoon to be over. I want to go back to those days of tight restrictions to my pouch and the feeling of only being able to eat a small portion. Heck, I am not even saying it that specifically; I want my brain to stop telling me to keep on eating even though I am done. I want the passion back in my efforts. I want, I want, I want....
Life skills. I have many, many years of teaching myself the bad things to do. The unhealthy things that got me where I am. And since my surgery, I have slowly realized that I can go back to those bad things. My pouch will let me. It's a real bummer. But to be honest, I can learn new skills. I must learn new skills.
It occurs to me that I am already choosing the wrong type of foods. Where is my green smoothie? Where are my salads at lunch? Should I be eating bacon and eggs for breakfast? (well, egg anyway). Its time to rethink my diet and my choices.
I still have some more weight to lose, true...but even if I never lost another pound, I am leaning more towards regain in the attitudes I have developed lately. It's not good. Please don't let the honeymoon be over!
I am working on week 29 right now. I am over 1/2 way through my first year. I have noticed that I wake up in the morning and for the most part follow my normal routines. I get on my treadmill, I go for however long I allowed myself to based off how long I slept in. I eat breakfast, and it's usually that egg and 2 slices of bacon. (not such a good choice with the bacon). I then pack a lunch of some kind of leftovers or maybe some Wendy's Chili and a yogurt with some fruit and cheese. That will get me through the day. Then I come home with absolutely no idea what's for dinner. That starts the grazing habits that lead to beef jerky, cashews, cheese...you get the picture. This isn't a good pattern. I need to shake things up!
I am going to work on a new plan.