Time Just Slips Away

I have not been a very good blogger. In fact, I pulled out my macbook yesterday (which I have not used in over a year) and charged it and found this blog to be the page it was last left on. Why? How could my Mac have not been used in over a year? It's weird. The only explanation I have is that I retired from work last March and devoted the last year in just doing "me". Lots of reading, video games (I know, right?) artistic things and just being my normal agoraphobic self, but even more so. (that's a while different story though, so I will save it). Honestly, curiosity played a part in looking over this blog. I read a few entries and felt myself being embarrassed that so much of my identity is tied into a scale. I mean, lose a pound...I have worth, gain a pound, I am a failure. What the...!? But, I continue to weigh myself every morning and since this blog is all about that whole topic, I can report that I spent the last year maintaining within a pound or 2 give or take of 175. This morning 167. What? The whole drama of this blog was about my getting to my lowest bariatric loss of 167! You mean I met that goal and didn't even realize it? And how has it been 10 years since that surgery? HOW? So, in the big scheme of things, I guess it has been a battle but also a success. Lots of ups and downs, (life and weight) and just living life the best I can. And, as mentioned...I AM NOW RETIRED and that has relieved so much stress. YAY. And as many typos as I have made since I started this post, it's like I have completely forgotten how to use a keyboard. So what is my current battle plan? I really don't even have one. I am now 63 years old. It sounds so geriatric and I guess it is. But me? Life is weird. I guess I am fortunate that I have been able to live in this world this long. Hopefully another 10 or so?