Days Going By

I haven't been very good at updating at this blog in the last few weeks.  Things are going pretty good though and I think other than an extreme slow down to weight loss, I have been maintaining things fairly well.  

I am on week 7 of the couch to 5K program, which means I am now running for 20 minutes straight.  I think I am going to be up to 25 minutes on my next day.  Other than a feeling of accomplishment to be able to do all that running, as I am not sure I could have done that as a younger person, I find that it really rather boring.  I am about 8 minutes into the run and think to myself that I'd like to stop now because I am bored, but for principle sake, I continue on.  So, my thoughts are, I will finish this program and then only use running in between walking to keep things interesting, but not as an ultimate fitness goal.

My last weigh in, I was down to 175.9.  Thats a total loss since surgery of 71.1 lbs, and from my highest recorded weight, 101.1!! That's really crazy to me.  I remember being that weight and holding it as my dirty little secret.  Sure, I can remember weighing in the 170's, but the majority of my adult life has been spent over 200 lbs, and until surgery, way over 200 lbs.  I would have friends or even adult sons, that mentioned their current weight and it being around my size now, and my personal demons whispered in my ear that I was a whole person larger than them.

I don't kid myself that I am now normal sized and this is the end of the show, but I do feel closer to "normal" than I have been in many, many years. The last time I was at this size, I was still in my 20's and struggling with all kinds of body dysmorphia.  

Is it easy?  No, it's not.  My capacity is much more than of months past and I find that the less healthy something is to eat, the easier it is to go down.  What that means is, chocolate, crackers, halo top ice cream, (probably chips), nuts, all go down fine.  The things that I have difficulty eating a lot of are dense proteins, like chicken, fish, pork and beef.  It's too bad too because I really want to eat those things to make certain I am getting enough protein, but usually I can't eat more than a few bites because of the yuck factor.  I do seem to do fine with beans and cottage cheese, eggs and cheese.

This entry doesn't have a lot of flow to it because my thoughts are very disjointed this morning,  but I knew I was long overdue for an update.  I will try to come again soon and try to lay down some more cohesive thoughts.

3 Generations....